October 2015

Where'd the time go, right? Hope you've been happy and staying busy. I gotta tell you I have a phobia of posting posts on this website. It's something I'm working on. 

Here's something else I've been working on. I'm making a documentary film about the writing, making, and recording of my next record. Which will be a full-length. To be recorded at some point next year. The whole project will span about 12 months. I'll make it available on DVD which is exciting. I'm sure it'll be on my YouTube channel and all of the internet areas. Ballpark plan is now for it to be 25ish minutes and pitch it to film festivals. Hopefully there'll be a demand and desire for a feature length film in which case who knows, wouldn't that be something to see this idiot on Netflix? I don't know how that happens. But I don't have to right now. I just have to honor my gifts and give you the best record I know how to write. Guy by the name of Joe Gomez is manning the camera. 

Here's me the other night in a self-portrait kind of mood after we filmed for the first time.

 

A lot has been happening and changing in my life. Seems like most of it is scary at least some of the time. I'm 3+ weeks sober. Had my last beers at this Fantasy Football Draft. I'm just not any good at drinking. I feel WRECKED every day after. And it depresses me while I do it. Go figure a depressant depressing. I told a wise person at the start of this "it just doesn't feel like I have it as bad as other alcoholics/I don't know where my 'bottom' is" and the wise person said "the bottom is when you decide to stop digging".

I've had my nose in a lot of books lately. I can't seem to attach to just one. Gratitude & Trust, Alcoholics Anonymous, Children of Alcoholism, Your Best Life Now, Blessed Relief, and I know there's some Steinbeck book that's pissed at me for ditching it several months ago half-done. In Dubious Battle is a great story, what a damn writer he was.

I want to be brave. I want to be courageous. I am scared and tempted most days. Maybe you're someone out there struggling with something, too. You can reach out to me and we can talk about it. Just so you know. Preciate the kind thoughts and prayers. I look forward to delivering to you some pretty badass music here soon.

To health!

Also Go Buffalo Bills

Also Go St. Louis Cardinals